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[tiptoe39]

This year I wrote and posted (in chronological order):

(This list doesn't include WIPs or drabbles, because they are quite literally too numerous to count. Basically, I only listed it if I gave it header information and it's finished. Longfic is marked as such.)

2/9/11: Free to Feel (Sam/Dean, NC-17)
2/20/11: Ad-Libbed (Jensen/Misha, NC-17)
3/7/11: Tonight, Honey, I Have a Headache (Jared/Jensen, NC-17)
4/4/11: Past the Red Lights (H50, Steve/Danny, PG)
4/11/11: After the O (Jensen/Misha, NC-17)
4/19/11: Stargazers (Sam/Castiel, PG)
5/3/11: Someday in Paradise (Dean/Lucifer, NC-17)
5/3/11: Trust (SPN gen, G)
5/31/11: Poetic Justice (Dean/Gabriel, NC-17) - 17,000 words
6/5/11: Movie Marathon (Dean/Cas, R)
6/6/11: Leave Thy Gift Before The Altar (Dean/Castiel/Sam, NC-17) - co-written with obstinatrix
6/14/11: There Are No Lies on Your Body (Dean/Castiel, NC-17)
6/17/11: Beyond the Edge and Falling (Dean/Castiel, NC-17) - co-written with annundriel, cautionzombies, and obstinatrix
6/27/11: Blame It on the Booze (Dean/Castiel, NC-17)
7/12/11: Mountains in Motion (Jared/Sam, NC-17)
7/15/11: I Saw You Like a Summer Dream (Dean/Cas AU, PG-13)
8/8/11: Tale as Old as Time (Fourteen Kisses) (Castiel/Gabriel, PG-13) - 13,000 words
8/10/11: All Together (Jared/Misha(/Jensen), NC-17)
8/14/11: And I Never Really Sleep Anymore (Dean/Castiel, NC-17)
9/11/11: Before the Sunrise (Dean/Cas, NC-17)
10/1/11: Looking at the Fortune Teller (I Fell in Love) - J2, PG
10/9/11: Five Reasons Dean Uses the Trenchcoat as a Pillow (and One Reason He Doesn't) (Dean/Castiel pre-slash, PG)
10/10/11: Imagine (Dean/Cas, PG)
10/26/11: Maybe It's the Force (Suits, Harvey/Mike, PG)
11/11/11: Somebody Somewhere Must Be Tolling a Bell (gen, Dean/Cas if you squint, PG-13)
12/18/11: As Easy as Airway, Breathing, and Circulation (Jensen/Misha, NC-17) - co-written with akadougal

Overall Thoughts:

So, so, SO much porn! I guess all my plot bunnies this year were preoccupied with my original novel that all I could think about in the way of fandom was bumping bodies. IDEK. But it was fun stuff.

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you'd predicted?

Less longer fic and more shortfic. Five Sentence Smut, Kinky Mondays, blindfold_spn, and various other memes kept me writing prompts that caught my eye one day or the next, rather than having a lot of really brilliant ideas that I worked on for weeks at a time. So I sort of found my bliss writing whatever appealed to me at the moment, and did so much of that that I fear my fic list is nowhere near representative of my actual writing.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January?

I never predicted writing Dean/Lucifer, and certainly before meeting Jared in person I had no inkling I'd ever write Sam/Jared. And I had no idea that I'd get into Suits, but other than that, it was pretty par for the course. I will say that Somebody Somewhere Might Be Tolling a Bell was a real departure for me, but I'm unsure if it was a successful departure.


What's your own favorite story of the year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you happiest?

There Are No Lies on Your Body. That fic did everything I wanted it to, and if I dare say so myself it did it well. Tale as Old as Time was uniquely satisfying to write, as well, and I really love the topics it hit on.


Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?

I learned that I can be a published author of original fiction, yo!!!!! Does that count? (I think it counts more than anything.)

I took risks in forcing asking people I admired to write with me, and learning to swallow my insecurities and pretend I knew I was good enough instead of giving in to my desire to constantly apologize and accuse others of just pretending to like me and all that insecure, passive-aggressive shit. Lo and behold, it worked just the way the self-help tapes tell you to. Now I feel very much like I'm friends with these people on a level that goes muuuuuch deeper than fic/fandom/fangirling now, and I no longer feel like I don't fit in.

Most of the time ;D

My best story of this year:

I sorely want to point to the co-written fics, because those had the lifting force of being shared with some truly extraordinary talents. Beyond the Edge and Falling I think is just a beautiful piece of harmonic poetry, with four voices blending into one, and Leave Thy Gift Before the Altar is really disturbing and dark and creepy and sexy.

My most popular story of this year:

The trenchcoat fic. It is absolutely RIDICULOUS how popular that fic got. And I didn't even beta it or give it header info, but the sheer number of comments is beyond ridiculous. What I wouldn't give to have some of the fic I worked really, really, REALLY hard on get that kind of attention. But fandom is a fickle mistress.

Story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion:

A fic that's currently in an exchange and I can't reveal which one it is yet ;D

Besides that? Somebody Somewhere Must Be Tolling a Bell. I took some real risks and wrote a serious darkfic and used characters I don't usually use, and it was for spn_cinema, but I guess it wasn't the kind of faithful fusion/adaptation people really wanted to see.

Mostly I think all my fics deserve more love than they get ;D

Most fun story to write:

As Easy as Airway, Breathing, and Circulation. Writing with akadougal was more fun than I've had in ages. God, I loved working with her! :D

Story with the single sexiest moment:

Leave Thy Gift Before the Altar, with Sam and Dean mouthing around Castiel's cock, I think that has to be the sexiest thing. But I would be remiss if I weren't to mention my sex-shop porn, which never got a name or headers but was more popular than half the "official" fic I posted.

Most "Holy crap, that's wrong, even for you" story:

Probably Mountains in Motion. The minute I was in the same room with Jared Padalecki I knew I wanted to write Sam/Jared. Because unf. UNF.

Story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters:

Tale as Old as Time and Somebody Somewhere Must Be Tolling a Bell. TaOaT deepened the thought processes for me about both Castiel and Gabriel, and SSMBTaB really took me very deep into Dean's state of mind in the darkest possible place, and it hurt to write.

Hardest story to write:

Somebody Somewhere Must Be Tolling a Bell - it was physically painful to write.

Biggest Disappointment:

That SSMBTaB didn't get noticed at all. I really thought it was special. Also, my suits-xmas fic, but that's more along the lines of recent disappointments.

Biggest Surprise:

The trenchcoat fic! Really, WTF, fandom? I'm grateful, but... Hurgh?

Favorite Opening Line(s):

Someday in Paradise - Someday in Paradise, it all works out. Old hunters are young again. The damned are saved. Those lost to war rise. And everyone, everyone, finds love.

Poetic Justice - Ideas, unlike people, are not easily killed.

Tale as Old as Time - Castiel walks alone in a graveyard of souls.

All Together - Misha's thigh is the first thing Jensen sees, white and splayed outward, knee bent under.

Favorite Closing Line(s):

Past the Red Lights - As he's pulling out of Steve's driveway later that night, it suddenly occurs to Danny that he might just have a type, too.

Stargazers - Sam's scent settles around him, fresh and warm, and he follows the arrow of Sam's arm up into the wonders of the universe.

Movie Marathon - No angels were harmed in the making of this production.

Top 6 Scenes from Anywhere You Would Choose to Have Illustrated:

Free to Feel - Bobby walks into the guest room to find the two of them, embracing as though they've been glued together, not moving. Bobby stands and watches for a moment. He sees Dean's head tilted onto Sam's shoulder, sees Sam with his eyes shut tight, one arm tucked up beneath Dean's shirt. Not moving, not doing anything, just there. Hugging. Touching.

Poetic Justice - They're somewhere up above the city now. Dean's chucked his boots on the roof of a skyscraper and is racing up into chilly air in bare feet. He's learned how to rise and dive, and now he's trying barrel rolls, somersaulting through space until he has to look for the ground to know which direction it's in. Gabriel applauds his aerial acrobatics and helps him get oriented again. Dean sits on a ledge of nothing and watches his toes hanging in space below.

There Are No Lies on Your Body - He undoes his belt. His pants slide to the ground, and he leans down to slide out of his shoes and socks. He stands up then, naked, waiting before Dean as though for judgment. (yeh, someone just draw naked castiel for me ^o^)

I Saw You Like a Summer Dream - And as Castiel stares, palms widespread on the windowpanes, Dean empties the second bottle of water over his head. Wet, spiking hair, water mixing with sweat, soaking his clothes, rivulets sliding down his chest and beneath his shirt. His nipples peaking beneath the soaked cotton. His face tipped up in ecstasy and relief. Shaking himself dry, droplets flying everywhere.

Somebody Somewhere - Dean and John fighting off the demon swarm - The demons swarm forward again. There isn't time to talk, then, only time for them to fight and shout exorcisms and spray salt.

or the moment when Cas freezes time, which is too spoilery for me to quote (why yus i am trying to get more ppl to read that fic. go go go)

Story I haven't yet written, but intend to:

Actually all my ambitions right now are in original-fiction land. I still have a vampire!Dean idea and an idea for 50states_spn that didn't go anywhere, so I guess they count.

Fic-writing goals for 2012:

To write what I want, when I want, and not get bogged down by challenges or exchanges.

To co-write with some more of my favorite authors (you know who you are).

To learn to edit myself and really put down the best of what I can offer without letting the stream-of-consciousness sit unexamined.

Comments

[seraph-lost.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad you posted this, there are several you posted I have somehow missed and now gotta go read like mad. Also love hearing what you liked writing the best, going to re-read those with this in mind. Other words - yay-ness. <3

[tiptoe39.livejournal.com]

Wheeeeeeeeeeee ^o^ Thank you honey, hope they bring you joy!

[kleenexcow.livejournal.com]

Happy New Year, Tippy! I hope our fandom paths cross again someday. :)

[tiptoe39.livejournal.com]

<3 <3 <3 Happy new year to you too, darling!! FWIW I consider you a friend beyond fandom, but I hope so too, for the sheer sake of the fun we'd have ^o^ cheers m'doll, hope it's a wonderful year for you!

[kleenexcow.livejournal.com]

Oh, absolutely! We're totally friends beyond fandom...but reading you talk about all of your fics made nostalgic for all you wrote in the Matt/Mo days. <3 Hope you have an amazing 2012!

[tiptoe39.livejournal.com]

back atcha darling <3